today all i've wanted to watch is juno?!

i've also read over 200 pages of the book jazz gave me...
today's been boring. we went to blenheim palace.  dull

that is my photo of the day.
i'm gonna start doing that now instead of writing a load of shit you don't really care about.
cause let's face  it, my life isn't that all interesting.
so this can now be a photoy blog. instead of words. cause i'm far too lazy nowadays!

i forgot to upload some photos from paris...

PARIS 2010 WITH THE COLLEGE LOT.

mini orgy times. i got attacked. four times on my neck.

lovely.

le eye. ful.. touw. eurgh.

MY LAPTOPS ABOUT TO DIE.

I'LL DO SOME MORE TOMOO!

blah.blah.blah

sometimes i really wish i was different.

downloading some new tunes for the journey.

PARIS TOMORROW :D

I'M SO EXCITED.

I NEED TO PACK.

AAAAHHH.

tonight, i'm crashing over jazz's.

we're going to watch paranormal activity.

cause, there's not point in sleeping really.

BRING IT ONNNNN :D

oh my.

what a weekend.

so whaaat.... went out to wantage for michelles maternity leaving do. i won't lie. i got very drunk..

i had 4 double vodkas and coke, a pint of cider and blackcurrant & a glass of rose.

hello not being able to speak or walk properrrly. :) true didcot style i must say.

anyway, me and laura got a taxi home. i couldn't face going to the wally i was far too drunk.

so i walked home. on the phone to laura. then i phoned jazz..

i don't really remember the phone call.. but she filled me in the next day.

apparently i was hiccuping, and doing a weird sigh... haha

then, i walked down this road called green close. to go the short way back to mine.

i dunno what possessed me to go this way. but i did, and part of the way was blocked.

there was fences blocking the whole path width ways. i didn't think of going a different way... i just battled on through these metal fences. by myself. on the phone to jazz. in a short skirt and quite a nice top.

seriously, words dont do justice of the peril i faced. i should have taken a photo. haha.

well. i ended up with this on my face....

attractive ;)

i also have nothing else to say.

I LOVE JASMINE

THIS IS WHY WE'RE BEST FRIENDS.

i have no title for this.

so today, i spent 5 hours drawing a still life piece, when everyone had finished within the first hour or so.
mine took bloody ages.
in the end, i didn't like it, because i'd been staring at it for so long. and plus i'd realised the mask i was drawing &  shading ended up looking like it had had a stroke on one side of it's face.. it was just the bumps in the mask. but still. i can't believe it took my 5 hours.. i think it was that anyway....

when i got home i got a letter from Lynn, my mum's best friend. she's pretty wickked. she does dowsing and heals peoples with stones. but she's so funny. she said in her letter that she wants my children to call her granny lynn. :) i love her.
anyway...
in the letter, she'd written her memories of my mum. and to those reading my blog who don't know me.
my mum died when i was 8. from breast cancer. and this year, it'll be10 years since her death.
i never talk about her because it hurts so much. & typing this, is making my cry for the first time in ages. & tbh it's making me wonder why i'm even writing it at all.
my dad's getting re-married in april. i already live with her & her kids. but i don't know how i'm going to stand sitting there and watching him getting married to another woman.

now my eyes are all sticky from crying. fuck mascara.
i'm off to eat some chicken nuggets.

photography.

so right. i'll fill you in on my life later. but for now you can have a butchers at these.

they're some photo's i've taken.. seems quite a while ago now...i've just found them on my harddrive..

 i miss photog.

anyway. enjoyy :)

i dunno what happened to the bottom of that one...

soz.

i think i want this.

on my hip.

maybe minus the birds. ha

i will forever love ice age for the rest of my life.

my heart belongs with sid the sloth (L)

anyway. today was a GOOD DAY. top notch! haha.
well.. apart from getting woken up this morning at half 8 on my day off... daaamn kids!
oh & my whole family drinking all the bloody milk. I LOVE MILK. fuckers.
well... my love of my life turned up on my doorstep.
i'm not taking it off... haha (it's my adidas hoody btw)

i would have my face in the photo. but i haven't washed my hair. 

and i'm not wearing makeup. sexaaay.

i kinda look like a man.. i won't lie!

and frances bought me a galaxy bubbles bar :) scoooore (Y)

i told myself i'd save it for college tomorrow, seeing as there's no food in the house.. but bread. and i've given that up for lent. daaamn. but i've already tucked in... it was calling my name.

anyway, today was a really productive day.

last night i finished my bird book... it's only taken me... what? 6 months to actually start and finish.

so i'm proud of myself.

here's some of my faves...

bd bd.

the last one, i spent a good half hour cutting that bird out. daaamn.

anyway.

today, i made my alphabet consitina.. whilst watching "starter for ten." with james mccvoy in. he's pure yum.

halfway through the film, i got bored, of work. so i decided to wander my house. as you do.. and found some squirty cream in the fridge. for those of you who know me well.. i love squirty cream. my dad always used to buy it and insist on squirting it into my mouth all the live long day.

haha, & for those of you (i.e jazz.) who read this and thought that of an innuendo. fuck you.

anyway the point is i love squirty cream. so i spent about a good ten minutes just standing there in my kitchen squirting it into my mouth. haha :)

cause man... that's how i roll ;)

so then i got bored and wandered back upstairs.. & started on my illustration whilst watching ice age,  dawn of the dinosaurs.

i LOVE that film(L) haha.

unbelievably that's taken me all day hah.

at least everything's tidy :)

i'm gladd i've finally started to move on with my life.

everything's so good right now.

even the shit bits are good. haha.

i cba with grudges anymore.

(L)

i won't lie.

not only do my milkshakes bring all the boys to the yard.


but you've REALLY pissed me off.


& they're better than yours.

i know what i am, they know what they are, so let me be

I'm getting worse and worse at coming on here now. just like me at texting back.
it's been over two hours and i still haven't text pete back... & even thou it's in my mind that i need to text him. and my phone's right there. and the text is actually in my drafts... i haven't.
i seriously suck at life.

lets update you of my lovely week off...
saturday?
i had work.. but i can't actually remember what i did after...
sunday...
i had work. what a suprise. oh & it was valentines day. no roses or cards... noone even said happy v day to me. haha. just another day! at least i didn't have to spend any money on someone. or nearly burn myself with the oven this time :)
my sisters down. & my dad & frances have people over. so i have to ditch my plans with nat to be "sociable"
damn.
monday...
me & emily drive up to cheltenham... & go out for ellies birthday. a barbie birthday. so i have to wear pink...
i hate pink.

look at my at the front looking like a douche. haha :)
anyway. that night.. i had a VERY interesting phone call with jazz... and a lush text of matt... telling me he was wearing a thong, walking and thrusting to music in his room.. haha :) it gets me everytime :)
oh and also! jonny predicted my future. i'm going to live in the city.. and not settle down til i'm at least 71. sounds like me.. but i would like to at least have relationships? maybe one? haha
oh and he also caught me when i fell of this stage in the club. how embarrassing.. they had made it taller since i was last there. so what was i supposed to think?! :) i also got called an emo. seriously... i was wearing pink! :)
i love going out in cheltenham.

tuesday...
i had to drive home from cheltenham by myself. with just the sat nav for company... which kept falling off the window. bad times! but i made it to hannahs unharmed. but when i got out of the car, i was shaking like a bitch, i think my hangover had just hit me. but the pancakes healed me something proper :)
it was nice to catch up with mary, meg, hannah and gemma. lovesss.
then i drove home and just slept. its creepy driving home on a dark street alone. esp in the country.
oh no wait! i couldn't sleep this night. so i cut my hair myself... i dont think it looks too bad :)

wednesday...
i slept til gone twelve. didn't do much really. then went to jazz's to get picked up by her farter. to go to his for tea :)
niice one.

thursday...
ROAD TRIP DAY.
so i had an interview at New Bucks in High Wycombe. so i made jazz come with... i get unbelivably stressed when i'm driving and have no idea where i am or where i'm going. i just sit there and scream. and swear at the sat nav for lying to me. but we made it. after a mission of trying to park. but we MADE IT! :)
bit early than expected.. thankyou sat nav for lying to us. then we just sat, and ate crisps for a while. since we had a whole hour to kill. i had to get a ticket for the car... and i didn't understand it... haha, so i just chucked £2 in it... turns out we could have left at ten the next morning :)
anyway. the interview wasn't bad. the other girl getting interviewed was really nice, and we just chatted for ages until the men came to get us ;)
the guy who was interviewing me had a really strong accent.. i don't know what i was thou! it still bugs me. i think it was birmingham... ahah. also. the whole interview i had that weird barcelona song in my head.. bad times.
anyway.... i got in yay :) but it turns out that leicester and bath both take on 150 students a year. so it's looking doubtful that i'll end up going to leicester :( i reeeeeally wanted to thouu!
bad times.
then we roadtripped back to indias.
and it started snowing.. lovely. then we went to the ben johnson.. which was closed. so we trekked to the checkers and had a few. lots of truths came out ;) then went back to hers and watched ferris buellers day off.
loverrs.

friday...
india thought it'd be a good idea to go to bicester village. ROOKIE ERROR. no no no. i came out feeling so depressed... i think i wanted a mulberry bag. a luella bag. an alexander mcqueen top & shoes. oh and some jimmy choo bags... and a ralph lauren jumper. and some stuff from jack wills... I WISH I HAD MONEY.
okay so what? after that...
went home. got changed (well my tights & shoes) then went to jazzs. walked to the station. ended up missing the train by a minute. then got to oxford for seven. met mark. then walked... i suggested getting a bus. but mark was like no no well walk. so we walked.. he was long legs. :( bad times. then got to the zodiac at liike half past? hah. then he wandered off.. we found matt. then just stayed there for the whole gig. turns out i am pretty short. so short infact that matt can rest his chin on my head. LOVELY.

that's the nicest photo of the whole night i reckon. he's such a fag.

saturdayy.. (today) :)
my father woke me up half an hour before i had to get up this morning. he was "just checking i was in"
lovely. then i had work. lovelier. app my managers leaving thou...? :)
i cba to type anymore.


i love band of skulls.

sixth form forces.

very good night....

i love life (L)

'cause everything is never as it seems.

this has been the longest i've been on my laptop in a while...
i can never be bothered anymore....
even thou.. what do i do instead? not my art that's what.
i've pretty much got to finish a whole project by 9.30 tomo. hah. & yet. i'm still on here.. hah
so what's happened this week?
had a uni interview at UCA... i didn't like it there. i got an interview at bath spa... i think i might withdraw my application thou. when i told my dad... frances heard and was like "i thought bath spa was the top uni." it's not. so fuck off.
and i passed my driving test... :D which i did think i had failed haha.
so now i can drive to college. drive to work. drive everywhere without getting the bus :) THANK GOD.
and me & jazz got quite drunk friday.

it was a funny moment when this photo was being taken ;)

this week's been one of the best weeks i've had in a while...

i'm really looking forward to thursday... where i plan on getting very drunk whilst dressed as a nurse!

:)

wickkkkkked.

now i'm off to do some art... maybe. i might get distracted. ha :)

so whats new?

not much tbh.

but i'm watching transfomers two, so god knows how long it's going to take to fill you all in!

lets start at wednesday....
had a driving lesson... that went really well.. even though it was so god damn early and i had a headache because of that... then i caught a train to go up to my sisters.
was pretty boring train jouney. but how would i make it interesting?
anyway, got off the train, got picked up by emily & her house mates. then went to see the boys.. then went into cheltenham town. which was fun. emily bought me two cath kidston mugs.. even though it was her birthday. ihop she liked her present i got her... and the card with the winking orange. oooh yes :)
bought some fake tan. then went back to hers. helped decorate the living room with ellie and sarah whilst emily dyed her hair & i was on the phone to jason.

optimus prime is a god.
as soon as i typed this... he got stabbed :'(

anyway, me and ellie nearly died blowing up these cheap balloons they bought! but the room looked so good after. we had some cake... then started to fake tan (which really smelt like old people... well my nan.)
when i back brushed my hair i think i looked like farah forcett. ( the blonde one out of charlies angels.) bad times haha
everyone looked really good :) the night was awesome... didn't get so drunk this time... which was good. cause i was waaasted last time! hah
howev looking at the photos from the night... i really let go when i'm drunk. which has lead me to decide i'm going on a diet... plus with the food i ate when i'm up there.. haha bad tiiimes!



thursday... nothing much happened.. i got the train home at half six... after borrowing meadows' charger to give my phone a boost! it died :'(
nothing else happened that day.
friday.. i actually can't remember what happened...
but i got paid! and i was planning to go out to the pub with nat... but i was still knackered from wednesday, cause i stayed up to watch skins on thurs... which btw was a let down.. tomas is a boring person!
saturday... i had work.
lovely.
i dyed my hair too...
sunday... it was eventful. work. me and shona had to strip the window. the big window. that meant...
taking off the clothes off six mannequins. taking them out of the window. & taking two shelves down.
that may not sound like alot. but it was. trust. i cut my hand... bad times.
i love working sundays. laura always lets us go buy food... i left with a yummy goody bag full of twirly crisps and sausage rolls. haha.
i also bought a dress... but when i went to try it on.. kids who had previously been in there. had trashed the changing rooms. they'd pulled a curtain rail off. and left loadsa clothes in there. ALSO. they'd left matches on the floor.. and when hannah went to move a stool to fix the curtain rail. it sparked one of the matches and set fire to the floor.. it only burnt a little bit. but the floorings lino. so it smelt like a bitch.
haha it was exciting thou!
on the way home i drove... obvs.
and a pigeon flew into the car. like smashed into the side window. its so scary when a bird flies into  your car. my dad just said "at best he's got a headache...." BUT  STILL!
he's also trying to make me feel guilty about taking me to my uni interview wednesday...but he doesn't seem to realise how nervous i am... cause i've applied for advertising at this uni... so it's gonna be harder to explain why i want ot go there.
:/
& finaly we're to today!
college. did some work... couldn't really concentrate. but i did do some work..
and got chatted up in the library... if only the guy was good looking god damn it! haha
then me, jazz and india went to oxford. cause we were going to go ice skating but decided to do it in half term when more people want to go :)
we went to noodle nation and my god were the noodles good! :) there was just far too much. we ate at like two. and its now eight. and im still full ahha. :)
then me and jazz went to get our boffs pierced. :)
by mike. he was lovely. haha he said jazz has nice pale skin.. and that i look like his nephews girlfriend. haha :)
jazz got the other side of her nose pierced and i got my tregus done :)
doesn't really hurt much anymore. even thou i wont be able to wear both headphones in a while.
ohwell! :)

this weeks going really good so far... i'm just hoping wednesday and thursday go GREAT :)
then i'll be one a high for weeks! well... maybe. :)
good frikking times.

megan fox just had a mini robot humping her leg... i loled :)

today.

i just want to curl up in a ball.

Today i went to the wantage museum.

i had alot of fun haha
& choked twice...


;)


today i feel v. happy. :)

i'm a lion hear me roar.

laast night, me and jazz went out to get very extremely drunk.
rachel came over, then we went out and met danny etc.
we went for a walk in the rain. whilst casually drinking.
i managed to drink a whole bottle of vodka... ROOKIE MISTAKE.
i don't really remember much.. i remember being on the phone to matt, then talking to james, my brother from another mother, who was trying to make me come to wantage.
i dont even know what i was saying to matt, or james..
then max phoned me. and jamie was calling me a stupid fucking bitch down the phone. i cant really remember what i replied.. i just remember hanging up.

then after that.. i just remember collaspsing on my bed, and not being able to get up without feeling about to vom. and not being able to read the texts i was getting...
i dont remember anything from then on... until my dad found me sat on my bathroom floor.
lovely.
i called in sick at work. slept til two ish.

i still feel rough. bad times. but hey! good photos....

Northampton.

so today i had an interview at northampton uni.


they said they loved my work, & that i'll definately get into the other places i've applied to. & if they don't accept me, then they're blind. :)
so i got in!! :)
they also commented on my personality... when i'd only been there for... five minutes?
so i'm guessing it was my personal statement they got that from.. i hope.
the reeeeally fit one from the ucas fair, which jazz made me talk to interviewed me aswell as some old guy.
maan he's gorgeous. :)
i'm so tempted to just go there... just to stare at. stalker much?!
i was so nervous. when i was sat in emmas car i didnt want to move. i couldn't stop shaking. then i coulnd't stop talking. i've also realised then when i'm nervous i bite the inside of my lip.. i now have a sexy cut there.
some guy turned up for his interview in a tux. hah :)

i also reaaally fancy going to the skins party they're throwing in bristol? :)
someone fancy coming with?


thankyou so much for your LOVELY texts to calm me down & checking i was okay!

i lied. soz.

TODAY I GOT A DISTINCTION!! :D
oh hell yes. i'm daaamn happy. :) les, was saying how she loved my cd covers, and how intricate all the details were, like the measurements and how i chose to use a newspaper from the decade as the background whereas others would have just picked a random newspaper for the background :) she also said it was like a real graphic designers work! :D
that's the best compliment i've had in ages.

today was just getting better and better.
then i sorted out my portfolio out. added some more stuff :) before i go tomo, i just need to mount some other things then i'm sorted. :)

but then i came home.
i told my dad i got a distinction... he didn't seem that impressed.
we had pasta again for tea. ffs. i swear noone has imagination anymore.
plus. helena kept staring at me... i caught her staring at my boobs at one point. i wish she'd fuck off.
and, she does fuck all. and my dad always complains that i don't do anything. i do loads. but he never even notices, one time i said that my art was more important at that moment, he got well shitty and said i needed to sort my prioritys out. fuck that. i actually want to get into uni.
helena can go hurt herself. fucking chav. EURGH. i actually hate her.
go crawl in a hole.

i'm such a dick at times.

i will always need nat guilly in my life forever to calm me down.


i feel LOADS better now. :)

fml

i can't be asked with feeling like this anymore.
so i'm not going to come online much anymore, cause then i start feeling like shit.
so this'll be my last blog for a while.

i decided last night, i'm not going to let stupid things get me down... even when i expect them.
& i'm not going to tell people my feelings as much anymore, cause it just gets me into trouble,  and i always feel stupid after saying something i really feel. so no. not anymore. i hate the feeling i get after i do that.
i feel SO embarrased its unreal.

so yeah, the ball's your court now. you have my number. i'm too embarrassed to talk to you.


today, wasn't bad. bit of a waste of time, didn't have any set lessons, so i just went in, printed some stuff off.. then went home. & me and jazz bought a pic n mix each.
i felt sick after my giant blue dolphin so i havent eaten any since... i'm not even a quarter of the way through yet. aha.
i had a driving lesson too.. my driving instructor made me pick up his daughter and i drove her home. haha.
not baaad.
also, someone's been wearing my hoody, it smells reeally girlie and not my perfumey smell :/
noones worn this hoody since chris... apart from me, and i've obviously washed it since him.
eurgh.

assessment tomo. i'm trying to get all my work done. but i keep getting distracted.


why is when something really good happens? something ALWAYS has to fuck it up?

shouldn't go but i've lost my judgement.

I HAD THE BEST EVER MUFFIN TODAY.

i won't lie to you. i could have gone and bought another!

& that's saying something, due to my laziness! :)

it was like sex in a muffin case.

god bless sainsburys.

i'm so glad lucy's calmed me down.

& that photo.... that's given me the determination.

fuck you. actually not. cause you've prob got a disease.

LETS DO THIS!

think of you later in my empty room.

so i'm sat here. listening to my ipod, on shuffle, trying to actually finish my illustration (yay).
i did have plans... but!
Max has broken his collarbone.
so he went to the JR and I got my dad to come get me, after chatting to Kat for about half an hour & seeing my grandaughter (Rich)
then Max phones me and says that he needs surgery on his shoulder 'cause it's really badly broken... and the doctors haven't seen a broken collarbone like that like ever!
bloody typical to be honest.
and it's his right arm. heh. i wonder how he'll cope... i just hope he's okay really.
but i guess this means he can't come to northampton with me anymore.. :/ anyone want to come with?!

my dad asked me in the car on the way home, why max is now my new best friend.... my reply was... dunno probably cause we saw each other at some party, we were both drunk and started talking again...
:) smooooth.

So at work today, we've now been allocated "departments" like 915, shoes... etc. to like sort out and tidy and be in charge of.
mine is "yes yes jeans." pretty much the biggest, most important thing in the store. so thankyou.
i want a badge to say that i'm in charge of that part. :) i bet i won't thou.
but i hope i do... hannah's in charge of mirrors... as in cleaning them... but i thought the cleaner was paid to do that.. howev, i did say that her arms would get well toned from cleaning them every shift hah :)
i like mine... 'cause i get to decide what jeans go on the jean table. haha :) oh yeaaaah..

i'm kinda glad i'm not going out tonight, i just want to curl up in a ball really...

thankyou VERY much.

 thanks for lying to me... you're so two faced, I thought better of you. thanks.
i won't fill you in on what's happening in my life anymore, seeing as you can't be arsed with me...


forget it.

Today i had my romance tarot cards read..

And my overall romance tarot reading is this....

"A gentlemen, father, passionate, generous, noble, a good leader"

which either means, i'm meeting someone new... or that i'm a gentleman.

lovely stuff.

howev, i dunno if ange who was reading them, was doing it correct... ohwell :)

i wonder if i'll have a gentlemen come into my life. a passionate one at that?!

we'll see haa.

i'm also getting loadsa viruses on my laptop. i just found three... fuckers.

this last week's been pretty good, even the two extra marks i have on my body. :)

i hope work goes quickly tomo, i can't wait to go out... i hope the boys dont die thou. cause otherwise it'll ruin my night thanks.

today on the way home, some really smelly people got on the bus, i seriously could NOT breathe, i literally wretched about three times?! people should learn to wash... or use deoderent.

sick sick sick people!

i'm so fed up of art and being ill right now.

i miss you.

:)

i'm quite grumpy right now.


but i can't help but smile.  (L)



p.s your contacts make you look like a dick. and noone likes you.

maaaan you're gorgeous..

Today i made this...

however, i started to feel slightly sick after drinking half of this, so i gave up, and took it downstairs.

i slipped on my stairs. fell. and let go of the mug, and let it go flying down, with all the contents, the hot chocolate, the sticky marshmallows and the whipped cream and smash onto the floor. it was messy. and the mug broke. it was my favourite mug :(

bad bad times. actually dark times. torso times.

anyway, apart from that, me and jazz trekked down to the bus stop to get the bus for college... it didn't turn up, and we didn't really want to put our lives in the hands of the druggy/grumpy bus drivers. so we walked to sainsburys to get stuff for the hot chocolates :)

then i trekked home, and fell asleep whist watching tv, and woke up with a numb hip/bum... i dunno what part of my body it was...

Today's been a pretty productive day, i've done colour exp's of my illustration, i'm gonna do the text tomo, painted my screens... which i'll do the sketching of the design  onto it, in a bit. i even attempted to do my photog...

which i got really angry at. cause no matter how much i tried... the transfer wouldn't stick to the fabric. even the iron leaked onto the transfer which fucked it up.

so i gave up and threw it in the bin.

tomoo, i need to do some mounting. and hopefully if i can get to college, by some six sheet card.

then talk to my dad about getting to northampton. i kinda really hope comes with me.

right now. i'm so happy.

today, i thought when i was leaving work.. how many notes i touched with drugs on & how much i had on my hands...

yep. my life really is that interesting.
right now, i'm feeling unbelievably tired, i didn't go to sleep til gone 3 am this morning.
the only girl in jason's loft, with, tim, max, matt and jack. feeling slightly vunerable? yes. ha :)
i had a really weird dream, that something was marked onto my chest, and i couldnt see what it was...
then i just woke up.. as if i was falling. it was pretty damn strange.
but saturday night was pretty good. saw some interesting people. had some interesting conversations :)
even thou i was very very tired.

i always start writing blogs. then get distracted and bored and can never be bothered to finish.
another thing i'm lazy with. like food. i cba to feed myself anymore. unless i think i really need to... yep.
lazy.

today was crap.

l-l-let the bass kick.

i'm not suprised you'd do this. you always do. this is what? the third or fourth time now? just be honest, you do or you don't. just don't drag me along anymore.


"it's not in what you say or what you do... it's the way i feel when i'm with you."




LOL this just made me laugh.... chris chadwick has now deleted me off facebook ;)

tomorrow,

i'm phoning northampton to say i can't do the interview.


& i really. really. liked it there.

I HAVE TO POST THIS.

THIS IS THE BEST COME BACK I THINK I'VE EVER COME OUT WITH :D

i am so proud of myself. :)

i need a new book.

'cause i have nothing to do anymore. apart from come on here and chat shit, or watch more shit on the tv.
so someone buy me one?

today, it was snow day, i was going to go to wantage, but couldn't. i was going to go see my godmum. but couldnt.
but me and jazz had a better day :)
god knows how many times we nearly fell over... :)
we went and saw the rock and then went back to hers and had some food.
i have now rekindled my love for cheese triangles.

sexxaay ladies ;)

i hope the weather gets better... i could really do with getting to work saturday. & plus i was planning on doing stuff that night too.

also, you can fuck off with you trying to make yourself sound better than everyone else. you're only doing it cause you're not happy with your own life you need to make it sound better in your head and on paper.

FUCK OFF

i was just looking at some photos, they make me feel.... not worth it, inadequate & a slightly teeny weeny bit jealous.

i've been told my blogs are boring.

But tbh, how am i supposed to make them interesting?



i threw a snowball at max today. it felt good ;)

i've just taken the bandage off my knee.. it wasn't doing much...

for once in your life, just be straight with me.

i hate it when my phone vibrates and i can't find it on my bed.

Today i created this piece of art... can you tell who it is yet? :)
it's jazz lying on the floor... if you hadn't guessed. :)
i bled for this. cause i cut it when i flipped the stencil knife thinking it was a pencil.. and i think it looks pretty good... even thou i cut off her shouder :)
makes me feel like roy lichtenstein :) haha
it was pretty fun taking random photos for the project. matt took one of me under a disabled persons sign haha :) apparently i'm a good person to take photos of cause i'm so funny looking.
lovely.
so in the past two days i've been called little miss chat shit and a funny looking person...
i'm now seeing why i'm single.
i'm just so weird.


it's taking me so long to write this blog...

i cba anymore.

dum dum dum

everytime i get built up, i get dropped again.


kinda like a balloon.

today i got a new nickname...

went to rich's 18th shindig yesturday, 'cept i felt like crap, i was still shattered from new years, cause i didn't sleep much on the friday cause of the stupid family meal - which was shit btw, and i got a hideous necklace, which i'm never going to wear... and an art nouvou book. which wasnt too bad.

anyway, back to the party, i really wasn't in the mood, i felt like crap. i wanted to curl up in a ball i was that sleepy. and someone hurt my knee.. well, pushed their chair into it. bad times. and i wasnt in the mood to drink, when am i ever not in the mood to drink?! something must have been up. then like you know when you're feeling shit, and someone keeps asking "what's wrong?! come oooon? what's up? what's it to do with? a boy? work? your dad? gimme the first letter." whenever someone does that... i just stand there and stare at the person asking me. people annoy me. and jamie kept asking me to get into photos. and i really couldnt be bothered. so i asked my sister to come get me earlier. then went home got into bed, then cried.
today wasn't much better either, there was only 4 of us in. bit of a doss day, we had nothing to do really.
then right at the end, it got dead busy when we went to close. i hate it when that happens. :(
then i drove home... and had the shittest tea.
i mean, like i didnt have a shit enough day already, its like the worst thing to come home too.
stew and fucking dumplings. i thought it was going to be a roast... it's always the same. every sunday, it's always a roast or fucking stew and fucking dumplings.
plus frances proper fucked me off. i was actually thinking in my head when i was sat next to her, picking up my chair and smashing it into her head. or punching her in the face.
maaaan she grinds my gears.
haha :)
the one thing thats actually made me smile today.. was when max called me "little miss chat shit."
it's like my very own version of a little miss and mr men character :)
wickkked.
i'm pretty happy now.

i also saw someone today who has a really nice smile :)

i really really REALLY

wish what helen said is true.

pleeeeeeeeease <3

my new years resolution is... "to stop being such a pussy & man the fuck up."

oh hell yessss ;)
so last night was new years. i got extremely drunk too quickly.
helen got so drunk she couldnt walk so me and rosie ended up going out without her...
rosie made me wear heels. big mistake. i fell over so many times i cut my leg open. i didn't even realise til meg shouted ohhh you're bleeding. then that just set me off.
to sum the night up...
-i had a panic attack.
-i was bleeding.
-i saw gemma break the toilet seat cause she was so drunk.
-me and rosie were going to walk to wantage, but we got lost in a caravan park..
i think that's all the shinanigans! :)

this is how rather drunk i was.

the other night we all went to the four candles... when i say we all... i mean, me, jazz, tiff, india, matt, mark and mike.

we all got pretty drunk.

good night had by all i think....