well.well.well

i haven't written a blog in a while. truth be told, it's cause i really can't be bothered to turn my laptop on just to write what's happened in my day.

so here's a quick summary...
tuesday, my birthday, wicked day, got sweet things, and it was just a pretty good day.
wednesday, passed my theory, had my hpv jab, went to tiff's to watch scary films and drink. fun fun. wickked (Y)
thursday, went home, i can't remember what else i did...
friday, my pirate party, so fun to dress up as a pirate :) and saw matt who now lives in waaaless.
saturday, jazz stayed over, made cookies, attempted to watch the orphange, turned it off, cause it was in spanish.
sunday, did nothing special of what i can remember.
monday, went into town, got a hole in my ear. saw lucia who i havent seen since year 8. day made. oh and i went to see up with the fam. fun times.

now tuesday, boring day, spent 3 hours reading straight, i'm addicted to this book jazz made me borrow. :)
it's pretty damn good.
attempted to do work. heard a rumour. FANTASTIC. why does this always happen?! hmmm?!

anyway, last night i felt so ridiculously lonely it was stupid. i wanted to text someone, but i didn't want a reply, with all that cliche stuff, like "oh dont worry you'll find your prince charming." that's bull. i just wanted to talk to someone, actually just at someone. cause then i wouldn't get a reply, with a load of crap trying to cheer me up. that's why i'm writing it here, cause you can just read it, say something in your head, and not comment, cause i dont want a comment. i just wanted to get it off my chest. i dont want a boyfriend, i just want someone there
or am i just kidding
myself?

i'm so fed up right now.

it's my birthday today.

and i got an i-pod touch, a camera and lee mack tickets! :D and a condom from jazz. i told you i was right.


i love my father etc :)

i gotta stick to my girls like glue and i'm a nobbly number two.

haha, i don't know what the real lyrics are, and quite frankly i don't care.


today was a good day.
i was in such a good mood, saw the girls caught up. and also jazz was saying that her present is so big it wouldn't fit into my bag.
which got me thinking...
is it a basketball hoop? a footspa? a car?
it could be a number of things, however, i've come to the conclusion that she's just saying this to distract me from the fact she's actually bought me something small. like a packet of false nails or a condom.
i bet she read this and laughs, thinking "haha you have no clue."
which get's me very excited.
so yes. it's my eighteenth tomorrow, which is very exciting.
i hope i get money. cause i need to pay for a driving lesson which i have no money for. bad times.
i've pretty much finished my printmaking project, i just need to mount my prints and check the breif.
which i've lost. i'll look for it later.
i've done loadsa work the past couple of days, and have managed to keep my room tidy in the process, this makes me happy, cause i can't work in mess, it distracts me.


i fell asleep today when i got home from college, i was just in bed casually reading, when suddenly i woke up with my book on the floor, this makes me think i was knocked out.
i was also woken by the sound of tape being pulled. i thought my dad was taping me into my room.
he wasn't. thank god :)
he was painting the skirting board, and my bathroom door.
which i just went into, forgot it had been painted, shut the door, then tried to open it, and the paint and become sticky and stuck to the door frame. haha. thankfully i got out. otherwise i'd have to crawl out the window...

i don't think i have anything else to say. except jazz's mum's giving us a lift to college tomorrrow. yayyy for lifts and parents who can drive. i love momma h. so i need to be at jazz's for 9. which means lay in. :)

oh and also! today for tea we were having jacket tatoe.
me and helena are the only ones who use flora in the house, so i was the first on it. it was nearly run out. so i thought, to annoy her, i'd leave the tiniest bit in there, so that frances wouldn't let her start a new packet til it was all finished. i left her a bit with a crumb on.
haha, immature? i don't care, i'm turning into an adult tomorrow :)

if you can't find your way. look for me.

so, this weekend's been an exciting one... haha :)
so it started friday, emma gave me a lift home, and we made a plan on how to "play it cool" that night at the pub. i'm so glad she can drive :) then i started getting ready for ryan's suprise birthday party. i didn't know what to wear. but i think i looked alright in what i finally decided to wear... :)
then i got my dad to give me a lift to chloe's. where she and david had some horrible tasting wine. no joke it tasted like cheese. ahah awful.
steph turned up, i hadnt seen her in ages! then we went. :)
loadsa people were there, it was great. loadsa people i hadn't seen in ages. like sam, i hadn't seen him since primary school... 6 years ago? and matt, who used to go to our college. ahah, there was some rumour going round that he punched someone i think... i can't really remember much of that night, me and kat shared a bottle of red wine. then me and emma shared one. i was fucked. haha. oh and i saw tilly! we did our dance, it was a great moment :)
then we had photos in the toilets where  there were showers... cause they were changing rooms cause its a football club. such a good night. and also i made friends with a girl i thought hated me.. haha crazy times! :)
and me and emma decided that we were going to go clubbing when i turn 18....one day!
oh and the funniest part of the night was when me and kat were dancing by ourselves on the dancefloor, and i slipped and hit my head on her knee.... impossible? i think so.
ryan's face when he came in was classic! it was such a good night :)
then saturday, i had work. at half 9 in the morning. i had 7 hours sleep that night, but i was fine, i wasn't hung over. just had the munchies all day ahha :)
i got a text from kat asking me to find her something purple to wear for that night, so that occupied me for like 15 minutes :)
i drove home from work, in the dark ahah scary stuff !
then i trekked halfway across didcot to sam's house for pizza round his for his birthday. we were going to watch texas chainsaw massacre, but we didn't. i'm glad cause i didn't fancy walking home in the dark after watching it haha :) so we watched x-factor instead, and michael mccintyres comedy roadshow.
oh, and henry and his girlfriend megan, tricked me into believing that jon had shaved all his hair off, and was bald. like reflection in your scalp bald. just cause i couldn't see him when he walked through the door. i was indeed shocked when he walked through fully haired up. i did abuse them after.
i left at about half ten.got home at eleven. went to bed and woke up today at eleven.
good tiiiimes :)
i did loads today, tidied my room, hoovered dusted the lot! then i did loadsa work too, so i'm nearly caught up. apart from illustration. i wrote loads in moleskin too, so hopefully it'll look better now. and decided on my finals for my fine art. :)
oh and, i dropped, black acryilic paint onto my bed cover. bad times. so im now sat in bed without a cover on it. haha :)
it came off thou. after many minutes of scrubbing.

i'm in such a good mood today, this weekend's been a gooden.
and it's my birthday on tuesday. one day away.
also my dad bought coraline on dvd. which we're going to watch in a bit.
tomorrow, i need to get my tickets from the station for cheltz.
and get come cookie mix, for tuesday. and get a shirt. cause i still don't have one for my pirate costume!
damn life.
i can't wait to see i can't wait to see the girls tomo, it feels like ages since i last saw them!
:)

oh and two more things.

yesturday i had to get jazz's stepdad to get the earring out of my ear with pliers.
fucking tigerlily giving me the wrong size.
and today i found out the fit boy on the bus has a girlfriend, as i heard him say on the phone this morning "i love you babe." to some bum down the phone.


fucking perfect.

conversation in two, and i wanna do so many things to you.

so basically, i'm gonna say today was a pretty crap day.
woke up slightly hung over. and i have some sort of bone sticking out of my neck near my ear.
yep you heard that right, a bone. i dunno if it really is a bone... but it feels like one.
strange.
anyway, back to my crap day, i'm so sleepy. i'm reeeeally behind on illustration :/ bad times, and that was our last lesson on that project today. fandabbytastic.
i could list my problems. but i really can't be furred.... as jazz has previously said.

i did get round to calling the health centre today thou, to book my hpv jab. it's next wednesday.
so i have, my theory, my jab, and then tiff's all in one day.
i'm thinking i might not go to college, cause it'd be so much effort going on so many buses. i might just, go home, and sit and then go, then go straight to tiff's after. plan.
and it's also the day after my birthday how rubbish.
but life goes on.
that's my motto? saying? i stand by that, and that there's always someone else who's worse off than you.
that kinda seems like you're arrogant. but whatever. :)


last night me, jazz and lauren all went over to hayley's house to have chinese and a catch up.
it was so good, i never see lauren or hayley anymore.
i also choked on my chinese i was eating, cause i forgot to swallow before laughing. something must have been extremely funny.
i also got my birthday pressie from hayley! it was the necklace i wanted from miss selfridge. how strange! :)
we ended the night after drinking too much wine, i don't really like white wine. but i drank it anyway, to look civilised and look girlie :)
both me jazz and lauren were feeling it, and trekked home moaning and laughing at life. it was great :)
one of the best nights i've had in a while i reckon. :) wickkedd..

i hate facebook.

...

i wish i didn't care.

i'm not in love,this is not my heart.

i have just successfully put my new (thicker) earring in my top bit of my ear i pierced myself.
wonderful.
there was some blood, but it didn't hurt. even though when i started putting it through, i did start piercing another bit and it nearly ended up coming out, the side of my ear. i should have got a longer barbell though, i can see it annoying me... :)

so today wasn't so bad, apart from me forgetting absolutely everything i needed for my fine art lesson, so i had to make glasses out of wire, but it was cool, it didn't look so bad, so yeaahhh :)
it was fun messing around with the overhead and the glasses too. fun fun.
then we went to oxford, well to tiff's house first. i love tiff's house, it's always fun, and we always gain more things when we go there. today i gained a necklace(which is very pretty thankyou trb.) and seventeen again, which i will watch later. :)
then we trundled off to oxford on the bus with cool seats. sadly tiff didn't find anything. but maybe she will in the future!
i got an barbell for my ear grissley bit (yum)
and then we went to visit matt (who wasn't there) and got acosted  by jamie morris at the same time.
we got free stuff it was alright in the end.
he's a weird child.

then we had to go home. and me & jazz got starred at by this random guy on the bus who was starring right in our eyes when we looked up.

then we got off the bus, and trundled, trundle trundle tundle... home :)
and here we are.
oh also!
today me and jazz started off the day by taking some sexyyy looking photos of ourselves..
here is just a little taster...

DAMN SEXY IF YOU ASK ME ;)

IT'S SUCH A WONDER WHY WE'RE SINGLE...

when i'm laughing at the bacon you're crying at the clinic.

so here i am... writing jazz's thankyou note for my present.
i lie. i'm listening to gym class heroes. making a playlist, titled boffage.
i think i'll play this playlist in my car. when i can drive. LUCKYMEEEEE.
i'm so excited for life right now  :D

today i got hit in the head by a frisbee.
yep, that's right, it fell out of the sky and onto my head.
hilarious really. i thought it was a bird falling on my head, but no, it was a frisbee, these silly people were throwing around the road.
who in their right minds throws frisbee's in the street?!
coorrr.

also, as i was lying on my bed downloading music...
i heard this noise, a noise familiarly recognised as fire.
yep, so i looked out my skylight, and there, in the sky, literally resting on my house was a hot air balloon, i reckon if i was to open it, i could have spoken to those in the basket. :)
i wish i had now..

i also saw some old man giving an old lady a massage in the street today.
how odd.
whatever get's her off i guess...


I HAVE NOW BOUGHT MY TRAIN TICKETS FOR CHELTENHAM ON THE 28TH :D
excitement my friends.
excitement !!
now i just have to narrow down my outfits to go out in.. :)
yayyy.

i don't think i have anything else to say.
so that's it. later :D

CAUSE YOU LOOK SO FINE AND I REALLY WANNA MAKE YOU MINE.

BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH DE DA.

BO BO BO BO BO BO BE DO DE DO.

GOOD MOOD. GOOD OL' MOOD.



i'm done.

you know that i could use somebody.

i'm so bored of life. i just did some work, but then i started day dreaming of all the things i want to buy but can't cause im quite poor. i accidently impulse bidded on a denim jacket on ebay again. haha. oh dear.
i have too many things i want to buy :'(

• a denim jacket.
• a ipod radio thing, that wakes you up with your ipod. they look fun.
• a camera.
• a pair of grey leggings.
• some oversized tops. like that one from miss selfridge me and jazz both like.
• a big black ring. and some more rings.
• some bracelets for a change. no necklaces.
• a red tartan scarf.
• a black pair of converse.
• a new purse.
• a new bag, cause mine's falling apart. well, my sisters' bag is falling apart.
• someone to do my work for me.
• a life.
• a hobby.
• nicer looking legs. i have weird looking legs.
• a good book to read, i want some new books!
• a reaaaaaally nice pair of earrings.
• superbad on dvd? i fancy watching it.

haha too much stuff :'( if i didn't buy anything this month.. i reckon i could afford most of this stuff.
but alas. i buy alot of crap.

i need a hobby. maybe i should start learning geeetar again? haha. i need a teacher please. for free. cause i don't save money.
fml, i just remembered i need to buy train tickets for my sisters.
and my contracts coming out on the 23rd.

poooor giiiirrrl.
well at least i have money i guess.

not everything's going to the beat.

my dad had bought some addias trainers. i noticed just a few minutes ago, he looked so proud. he's so strange, it reminded me of mike from hollyoaks. cause he wears trainers like that.. haha crazy times.
so last night, chloe & helen came round. it was nice, we caught up, shared gossip.. :)  turns out wantage people are fucking weird.  chloe also shared some interesing information, that my ex boyfriend is now going out with a 15 year old..

that. makes. me. sick.
lol.

makes me so happy i'm over that boy.
anyway!
we watched ghost town. it such a crap weird film... i aws so tired, i was nearly falling asleep watching it too!ahha :) then they went home. and i went upstairs watched family guy, hoping that creepy guy who says "hey there little kiddies..." came on. he didn't. he's my favourite haha :)

yesturday, i also got very pissed off at work. damn them changing managers. they keep putting me on 9.30 til 6.30 every saturday. I CAN'T GET HOME. dick'eds.
and they took my holiday away from me :( so i talked to my now new manager.  and i came out with shorter shifts and two more days holiday SCOREEEE.

nothing else has happened... i'm gonna go get some lunch now. and hopefully do some work!
:) have a nice day bloggers. x

this boat won't float.

i hate mood boards.

well no i don't really hate them, i just can't be asked with them.
i have no motivation today, i did, i had some coffee. facebook is my weakness.
i did however tidy my room :)
i think i have ocd.


i want to buy things.
i have no money, i remembered today that my contract will also take some more money out of my money. so i basically have £100 left of my wages left, i got paid like a week ago? i also got paid £430.
what the fuck :(

i really want a red tartan scarf and a denim jacket. and some more rings. ahha! not necklaces. maybe i'm out of that phase now...
12 days.
i need to sort my life out.

you're waking up, a part of me i've never known.

Today, i got woken up by the rain. at about six in the morning, and my alarm was supposed to go off 45 minutes later. i hate it when that happens. especially if you get woken up, that's the worst.

there's nothing on tv, again, what a suprise!
i'm stuck watching gok wan, is it just me, or do others get annoyed by this man. yes he's doing a good job by giving people confidence and stuff, cause barely anyone has it these days, unless you're dead skinny or a slag, either way you're gonna be skinny. unless you're a life model, they're pretty confident. anyway off the subject, i dunno how he does it, he's annoying.
and has tufty hair.
LOVE YOUR BELLY LADIES.

i've realised lately that i'm alot happier, i havent been down mush lately. i wish i had the motivation to do things thou. what wakes people up? any ideas? are there any foods that can make people motivated.
i'm going to google this. i googled. i found nothing, just a website to help with motivation if i was depressed.
maybe i need sleep?!
may-bee!

Today wasn't a bad day, I just realised alot that i've got loads of work to do. LOADS. i'm very much behind, but then again with the motivation.
haha, it's one vicious circle.

hut?

I can't write a blog and watch tv at the same time, it's so confusing, i don't think i can multitask, maybe i'm not a woman...
haha, i'm talking utter bull now, so i'm going to go, and practice more on my hazard perception ;)
yep. lucky me! :)
laterz

i'll stab you in the eye yo. with a f***ing brio.

i thought i'd be p.c there ;) today i've discovered my love for chase and status. they're pretty brilliant if you ask me. I've decided i'm going to download more of their tunes when i get on my laptop :)

so today, pretty boring day. printmaking. Which i haven't done any work for. but i'm slowly catching up with everything else. :) snaps for annis!

i also purchased some sexy looking boots today, £50 but OHWELL let's face it, i really did need them. i really can't wait for them to come in the post  :)
my pirate, skull scarf came in the post today! it made me even more excited for my birthday eee. so i expect everyone who's read this to come to mine okay?  well only if i've invited you. i'm so excited. i love birthdays :) i hope i get a camera. i desperately need one.

ALSO, when me and jazz were waiting for the bus today, some creepy lady was starring at me. then she bit her lip. it was funny creepy thou. haha, then i hid behind jazz and told her, and the lady moved closer, to right behind jazz! some people in this world are just plain weird.
i thought she was going to come and steal me. thank god jazz was there to hide me.
so that's my excitement for the day...
hopefully something interesting will happen soon. maybe tomorrow... i should probably tell tiff we need to bring in some certain stuff...
tiff, if you read this and i haven't told you. i did think about telling you at least.
and jazz, if you read this, maybe you should tell her.... cause i'll forget.
i bet i'll forget myself to bring in the stuff.
damn life.
i think that's all for now. you never know i might think of something to write later... :)
you lucky people ;)

ha.

by staging my protest & hiding out in my room, and avoiding my dad's glances & not talking at dinner.
he apologised.
even then i didn't look at him.

people are silly.

noone is as lucky as us.

Today I've been hiding out in my room, as me and my dad had a massive fight this morning.
if you see me and think my injuries are bad... you should see him ;) nahhhh it wasn't a physical thing, thank god, cause otherwise i prob wouldn't be writing this right now. ha. he's such a dick, starting caring now... i mean what's the point. i feel like a lodger in this house. actually no, a squatter, cause being a lodger i'd have to pay money to live here. fuck that.
he's an arse.

anyway! last night was really fun, India, Jazz and I did something different for a change. after a mission of getting to oxford (me sitting and waiting for a bus that didn't turn up for another 45 minutes.) we went to pizza hut and just ate. and ended up feeling ill after eating too much. it was YUM-EEE. we found out alot about each other that night, asking each other questions, random questions, like favourite films and what we were allergic to. so fun. :)


i wish i never fell for max lewis carter.


I'm so glad i didn't have work today, i had a massive lay in, maaan that was good, up until 9 when felix, who has the room underneath mine, started bouncing a ball against a wall. i could hear everything. every little stupid bounch. oh and also, he was singing. or attempting to sing. i felt like getting up and shouting at him. but no, my bed was far too comfy.

i've only eaten a bowl of shreddies today. i bloody love shreddies. i think i've lost my appetite after seeing that boy boffing up all over the bus last night. or hearing it, i shut my eyes. haha, it was so funny thou, some guys started talking to us. loadsa people were talking on the bus, like strangers that have never met. i like it when that happens. not sure why, it just shows how nice people are sometimes.

ALSO, today i've actually done work, i haven't actually started my mood boards, ive just got my research. and had some ideas for what to do on my project... music branding. which is my kinda project :) i need to do some proper research for that thou. im so behind. i hate being behind. cause then i can never be bothered to catch up with anything. oooh deeear. ha.

i don't think i have anything else to say.
apart from. i hate facebook. i wish i wasn't addicted to it. there's no point of it! it fuels my noseyness and i don't like being nosey. it's baaadd maaan. i might find if there's some sorta thing on my laptop that can stop me from going on it. ITS THAT BAD.
haha.

oh also, all those time's i've said my ear's swollen from where i pierced my ear. it's not, it's just the bar inside my ear haha. dick.

i'm gonna go do some work now, that NEEDS to be done.
laterrrrzz. xx