see you in the new year.

today, i spent over two hours sorting & finalising my Bauhaus proj, and not to toot my own horn. it looks bloody good :)
now i just need to do some sawing and painting and screwing in some hinges and it'll be done... finally.
now i've just got my photog and illustration to really finish.
good mood :)

tonight, i'm off into oxford, with, jazz (hopefully the id will work,), mikey, tiff, joe, india, mark & matt. :)
i hope it's gonna be a good night, i'm planning on getting rather drunk,
jazz is coming over in a bit to start getting ready. howev, i've only had a shower, i haven't even brushed my hair, washed it, gotten dressed. i'm just sat, with unbrushed hair, in a hair tie, my oxford joggers on and my UofG hoody on. i cba. i havent even done my make up.... i should prob do that in a bit.
i don't even know what i'm going to wear... i have an hour and a half til we have to walk down to mikes... will i do it?! haha

tomorrow is new years. i'm pretty glad tbh, i want to start over. i want to get over & start over haha :)
sounds pretty good.
but knowing me, something will happen and i'll be back to square one.
i think in the past year, i've defo grown up.. i like to think i've become stronger... and i also like to think i look better. well at least my hair's changed..
i'm also pretty glad i don't have a boyf. i don't like the idea of bringing in the new year with a boy. 'cause as jazz said, it kinda ties you to that person.. hence why i still like a certain someone. which i do hate btw - the feeling not the boy. i just dislike him...
anyway. i hope this new years is alot more eventful than last years...
well... it will if someone gets engaged.
the best moment of last years was when it turned twelve.. or when we thought it turned twelve and max said "it's not 20.09 thou, it's 12."
we  laughed, then corrected him. what a dick.
anyway.
i hope this years is a GREAT one :)


SEE YOU NEXT YEAR BLOGGERS.
this is cause i know i wont be bothered to come online tomoo... new years eve :)

have a gooden ;)
xxxxxx

i got another offer :)

yepp. i got another interview at uca farnham :)
so i've got two out of five right now :)
i'm pretty damn stoked.

later, as it's christmas eve, me and jazz are off to get pretty drunk over rosie humps place :)
hopefully to get sttteaamed :)
today's been a really unproductive day. i was going to do loadsa art. sort out things i needed to do for my portfolio. and write lists and stuff. but have i done this?! no..
i've been on facebook, talking to people. well atleast i've been speaking to people..
one person in particular... it's weird. it's so normal it's weird... i don't know anymore.

i bought a hat yesturday, then realised i could have bought one from work..

my blogs seem to be getting shorter and shorter..
i have nothing to say anymore.

just a quickie

I'VE GOT AN INTERVIEW AT NORTHAMPTON. :D

and i got the coolest package from DMU yesturday too :)
pretty stoked. and i'm off to oxford to buy something nice for myself. :) cause i got paid yesturday too :)


happy dayyys :)

i wish

people would stop fucking me around.
&
that i wasn't so nosey. it just makes me feel like crap :(

so whaaat?!

they cancelled my test. yep. fucking ice. the test centre was like an ice rink. but i phone up the dsa to complain and get arsey with them..  they've rebooked my test for the 5th. i'm not too fussed. cause i've spent 18 years without driving. so yeaah.. i'll just be proper pissed if they cancel it again. if they do. ima fucking knife someone. or just say i passed and drive around like lydia did haha :)

i've also seen photos from the other night... i look disgusting. and i now have a bloody cold.
yeah thanks.
like things couldnt get worse.
& he's fucked me around.
EURGH i wish i could cry.
i wanna do something fun... but i'll prob just end up doing nothing all day. sitting on facebook.
damn life.

ooooh.

i can't stop thinking about the wrong person.

today i woke up with michael jackson in my head.

just because in my dream, the man in the mirror was apparently the worlds song...
i dunno.

i'm in such a pickle. this always happens to me. but tbh, that's all i can really say about the many pickling situations i'm in 'cause i now know who reads my blogs... i bet one person will read this and be like.
oh my god. that's me. and honestly. it could well be you. but you'll never know.

i think jazz knows.

don't ask her.


so what... last night was really good. ka's 6th form party. a HELL of a lot better than last year, cause i was drunk.. and i liked the people there :) the usual happened, you know mistletoe kisses ;), ( i got three. well four if you count the second one i got of someone :) ) arguements, i witnessed two. tears, i only saw a few, spitting in drinks, three people spat in a drink max stole. the pikey. me and kat stole some tinsel. wrapped it round ourselves. we also had loadsa photos taken. i met some interesting people. and also some other guy i thought was ryan when i was looking for helen. so i asked him where helen was.. then realised it wasn't ryan.. it was dark and i was drunk. he asked if i was sure i wasn't looking for him instead. i patted him on the shoulder laughed and said. no my love. and walked away :)
when i got home.. at half eleven, helped myself to some shreddies :) tried to sleep... couldn't. didn't get to sleep till gone half four. :'( i had to get up at 8. BAD TIMES.

today, was a totally pointless... but i got a wiiickked present off tiff. :)
i'm so sleepy :(

i'm off babysitting later.. dunno what time! my dad lacks in the info department.
i was all up for cycling there. yeaah.. cycling.. even after my tragic accident of falling off a couple of months backk... i still have the scars. :)
i also have a scar from where me, rich and fred stole a massive tree root from someones fire in weymouth when camping. :) i fell over it. haha it makes me smile just thinking of plan tree root :)

today i discovered i have more money than i thought. fuuuun tiiiimes.
also my dad's giving me £50 for monday.
moooondaaaay.
me and jazz are dying her hair saturday... well i am.
yum.
and tuesday we're going to tiffs for a chrimbo lunch :)



i did something really bad the other day.
reeeeeaaallly bad haha :D

is it sad that i love wrapping up christmas presents?!

yes, i mean i LOVE them :) haha
at the mo, i've got wrapping paper, sissors, selotape, ribbon, paper a holepunch and presents.
all over my floor. :)
i think all my presents look very pretty.
i need to get a few things tomo thou... when i'm in... oxford seeing matthew ayres for the first time since my birthday shindig when we were dressed as pirates. LOVELY :)
i hope it snows.
i also need to return a dress... or find something else. haha :)
oh and i need to find something to wear on thursday. and i need to do some illustration. which i might do in a bit, whilst catching up with the i.t crowd. :)


today, i successfully dyed my hair. well when i say dyed. i mean highlighted, and when i say highlighted, i mean i stood infront of my bathroom mirror for a good hour, brushing bleach onto teeny tiny bits of my hair. all over my head.
i was suprised when i didn't get cramp afterwards...
i was pretty scared it was going to come out stripey. but no! it looks lush...

yep i was as suprised as it shows in this picture.

i've also had my hair cut if you can tell from the photo too :)
& that jumper is my new man/boy jumper :) i love it.

i'm going for a mince pie :) x

if you feel good. if you feel good. put one hand in the air. oh yeaaah.

so today.. wasn't bad.
couldn't be bothered with college... les would only moan at me with my lack of thing i've actually done for the project... so went into reading with millie joe.
and i... didn't buy anything for myself. nothing! everyone's pretty much sorted for presents now...
my sister also introduced me to a bean and sausage melt. it was dissappointing.
no sausage.
i could say many things about the statement there. ;)
saturday was such a disappointment. me and jazz had some champayne i was given for my birthday, which my dad and mum had saved since their wedding...
it was pretty awful. but i pretty much drank the whole bottle. jazz had a glass.
then we went to some party down my street... and accidently smashed jazz's bottle of vodka on the road..
i saw the red lid today.
saw james, who i havent seen since primary school :) and nat, who i havent seen in ages.
we were there for... five minutes? then thought fuck it, we'll go back to mine. and took loadsa photos :)

lovely :)

oh ALSO... i solved the helena problem. cause last wednesday.. which is my free day, she woke me up bouncing a ball... so. i went into her room when she left looked around for this ball.. couldn't find it. i found her advent calender... the door underneath the next day was open.. so i stuck my finger under, and stole the chocolate :) ahah

i walked out of the kitchen today, and millie joe and done the same... she stole christmas :)

Today i'm really happy. i have absolutely no idea why.
i cant be asked with college again tomorrow.
so i'm going to find a dress.. for hayleys. actually i might wait til weds when im in oxford...
i have nothing else to say...

laterrrz :)

some people...

are so annoying.... & fake.

(this is going to be a boring blog, so stop reading now if you're not interested... ;))

wickkkedd.
today i had my penultimate driving lesson today, it's getting closer!
v. excited :D
Im also getting my hair cut sunday :) FINALLY my hair is so long right now, i hate it.
and then i'm going to dye it monday too :) finally, everything seems to be getting better..  apart from how much work i have to do... and little money i have.
i'm selling two things on ebay, just to get a little bit haha. bad times.
i'm gonna have to raid my savings again. but starting in the new year. i'm putting £50 away every month. cause i'm poor. even in my savings!

i've been lying here on my bed with my laptop tilted up for so long i have a red mark where the heats been... lovely.


i have nothing else to report.
maybe later... ;)

wickkked.

so last night, was my works do. it was so good.
so basically, went back to hannahs to get ready, she lost katies id which she was borrowing, so we missed the bus... so her mum was driving us behind the bus to get to a bus stop before it.
got on the bus, the others were already drinking.. haha i say the others. there's over twenty of us working at new look... only seven of us went.. haha. but it ended up us having £210 behind the bar for drinks.
we got there. had four pitchers of sex on the beach (which is really yummy) sent to our table and started popping crackers, telling each other the jokes and donning the hats :)
then... skye bent over to pick up her bag off the floor. her hat fell off... and POOF flames.
yes. he hat caught on fire... drama at the table. then she blew it to put it out and it flew over and nearly landed on karin... fun times. also in the space of ten minutes. when laura and katie were going out for a cigarette... katie put her bag on the table... too close to the candles... and set alight to her real expensive guess bag...
so we decided to blow out the rest of the candles to be on the safe side... haha.
then the food came... katie suddenly got fucked. and was screaming in my ear if i wanted a mussel... or some lobster.. or some salmon... none of which were on the table.
the wedges were really yummy :)
hannah then threw a wedge into katies glass full of sex on the beach... and then shouted wedgie on the beach...
dead funny ahha.
katie also gave me her gum. and knocked my glass into my teeth and made it spill down my top.. bad times.
and hannah gave me some chicken out of a wrap.
lovely.
everyone got really drunk so quickly. i wasn't that drunk. so i kept drinking... then mel gave me a shot... which smelt weird. she said it was called a slippery nipple.
so i shot it :) never have one. it's bloody horrible.
then it hit me, and i collapsed onto hannahs shoulder. :) yay.

then we left after hours of dancing, singing and drinking. we left and went to park end.
which they didn't let me into cause i was too drunk. which is unfair i think!
so me and laura went to thirst. where she sat me on a seat and went to the bathroom... and when she came back she saw me proper shove a guy away from me... when she told me at work today i couldnt remember anything. but then i remember the guy he was really ugly, and wouldnt leave me alone, after me saying loadsa times to leave me alone. so i shouted fuck off and shoved him... she was going round work saying i nearly killed him haha :)
then we got a lift home. and i had to sit next to andymartins brother,... who i once told to fuck off when i was drunk thinking it was alan... ahah im glad he didnt know it was me :)
and today at work. everyone felt rough. everyone except harley. :) hah
i'm still hanging from last night, i'm shattered and my tummys frothing. it's horrible :(
i havent felt this bad in a LONG time.

one of my fav photies from the night :)

but bloody good weekend.
apart from... my boots. my love of my life. my amazing boots which are like santa boots. now have a hole in the bottom of the left sole. NONONO. not happy. :'( so my foot got really wet when i walked to hannahs saturday.
pfft. i'm going to complain.

i'm watching just my luck.

it really is just my luck.
i'm so annoyed/pissed off/upset right now.

in her own creepy world, there's a girl there's a girl.

today was a great day.

absolutely nothing of any interest happened.

i however, did buy jazz's and helen's presents.

so i now have presents for, helena, felix,india, jazz and helen.

wicked. only, my dad, frances, emily & tiff left.

i'm going to be poor.

ALSO.

i came home, and helena had used loadsa my stuff from MY bathroom.

sorry but if they're not yours... you don't use them right? or you ask.

she used my bubble bath (which is actually millie joe's... but she doesn't like baths.) and my facial scrub stuff.

that pissed me off. and she messed it up.

I DONT LIKE MESS.

god sake. i text my dad and he told me to calm down hah :)

highlight of my day.

now i'm off to enter my stuff onto ucas. lush.

anything else happen? nope, i took a cool photo of me thou...

it's not you. it's me.

i'm feeling in such a crappy mood.

i've been like this constantly lately.

up & down. some up days and some down days, it always when i seem to be at home. or on my own...

i'm feel so lonely right now, i swear i'm getting depressed. it's bloody ridiculous.

i just want to curl up into a ball and sleep.. or cry.

it's stupid.

Dad & Frances have finally booked their wedding...

two weeks ago. i found out yesturday, not even from my dad..

from frances. my dad "forgot."

this doesn't make me feel great at all.

he told my sister last week, and even his friend who lives in shropshire.

I LIVE IN THIS HOUSE.

and the fact that frances told me... instead of my own dad.

i'm not even happy about the whole marriage thing.

thanks. & if you read this, don't get pissed with me, you didn't even tell me.

i'm just pretty much down about everything right now.

chloe messaged me on facebook saying "when you get this text me :)"

i just text her saying .. you messaged me...?

i'm gonna guess that she doesn't think she's done anything wrong.

pah.

and ... has deleted me off facebook? i dunno how i feel about that tbh.

i saw him today, it was weird. seeing as i havent seen him since august.

also! i just went onto ucas to sort out my qualifications etc.
it wouldn't let me log in. i tried it a million times.
pah.
i give up.

the only good thing that's come out of today is that my dad bought me an advent calender..
which is a build your own one, a lolly one. in which you have to take a lolly out everyday. :)

i need my hair cut & dyed.

sorted bruv.

so today i finally come to the conclusions of all conclusions of which uni's i want to go to...

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  leicester DMU.. even thou when i saw it at the open day at college i asked where lie-chester was...
  
  
  
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  northampton.
  
  
  
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  worcester.
  
  
  
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  bath spa.
  
  
  
• 
  
  winchester
  
  
  

i like the chesters. haha. the top three, are my top three :) i cba to go to interviews thou, that's the downer of being an art student. but i guess then you get to meet some of the tutors :)

anyway...

the weather was crap today, and i'm feeling lonely. also you can forget what i said in my last blog, i think i was high or something.

and you can also not pay attention to what tiff and jazz have been saying all day. they're full of b.s

so i'm currently sat on my bed, typing this, thinking i should really do some work. but writing a blog is far better than doing any sort of art! i might thou, i've barely done any of my birdbook... uh ohh.

i really need to get some 6 sheet card too. but do i have any money?! NO.

damn life. i'm gonna go to the bank weds and transfer some from my savings. so i can have at least another driving lesson before my test.

excitement.

i have to take another £50 out tomo for my lesson weds. i'm hoping i still have that in there... somewhere. haha

on another higher happier note :) december's going to be such a good month!... here is for why..

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  27th nov, oxford w/ college then off to nandos :)
  
  
  
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  28th nov, i'm thinking i might ask jazz if she fancies coming over... i need something to do so i don't sound sad when people ask me at work what i did, when all i've done is sat at home reading... or worse.. sleeping.
  
  
  
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  30th nov, pay day!! :) not that that's any use i'm putting most of it towards driving or xmas presents.
  
  
  
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  5th dec, out with work for our christmas do to que pasa.! then out in ox after :)
  
  
  
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  12th dec, out for georgie's birthday, howev, me and hannah don't know many ppl, so we'll prob just end up drinking by ourselves haha
  
  
  
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  13th dec, my sister comes home :)
  
  
  
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  18th dec finish college! whoooppp. and i think i'm babysitting. so more money money
  
  
  
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  24th dec, hayley's birthday, so out to wallingford for it :) whooop :)
  
  
  
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  25th dec. christmas dayyy!
  
  
  
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  blah blah need more stuff...
  
  
  
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  31st dec, new yearss eveee. me and joose need to sort out sorta partyy going dowwnn :)
  
  
  

so therefore i am happy, and looking forward to this month.

it's doubtful this year i'm going to have someone for new years. i think that's going to be a bit weird.. :| thinking of last year. i hate it sometimes.

i really like how you can decorate your blog as if it's a statement for your myspace profile. it takes me back! i miss myspace haha, i haven't had it for... since march. you do the math.

i have nothing else to report apart from my loneliness inside me right now...

i say that as if i've had a miscarriage.

LOL

i remembered!

i had a really weird dream the other night, i swear i was on something! haha
so i thought i'd share it with you bloggers ;)

so basically, i was stood in a car park behind my new house... (not actually my house thou)
when this massive cat comes up to me, it was literally the same height as me, if not taller.
it's come from an orphanage down the road and  it's black and is covered in multicoloured spots.
which i find totally normal in my dream.
it starts licking my face, so i'm like "oh okay, so let's see who you are then.." and i look at his collar, his name is michael. haha :)
in another part of my dream. lee ryan from blue is watching me pee.... haha


also, jazz decided that my cat's name isn't jigsaw, it's kite, as it turned her head when jazz said kite... haha :)

so it's been a while my friend.

i can never be bothered to write a blog anymore. probably cause i can never actually be bothered to turn my laptop on anymore. only when i need to charge my ipod.
pah.
anyway, lots of things have happened here's a little recap of all the things i can remember happeneing...

• half term.. went up to my sisters, got extremely drunk, had to spend the night propped up by the wall in the club. fell over, scratched my new pink heels... haha i dont like pink anyway... but damn life!
• halloween.. had a few people over, went to jades, got drunk, chloe came in screaming, had a go at me and jade, i went home, chloe had trashed my house. i've pretty much only just moved in. and then she went round saying we were all doing drugs... what the fuuuck?! that's the end of the friendship.
• college. boring as per usual. still behind on work... caught up now thou :)
• can't remember....
• went to northampton uni. loved it. saw two v. fit guys. daaaamn. defo first choice :)
• SUCCESSFULLY SOLD A DVD ON EBAY. for £2. but OHWEELL :D
• went and saw fourth kind with jazz. good film, but strange... hah and that night i woke up at half 3. (everyone was waking up at that time in the film... and then got abducted.)
• um um. got pushed off tiff's bed by her loving boyfriend. cut my leg. i can't kneel :(
• got a blockbusters card.
• rented "tormented" and "role models" with jazz.
• went to work after two weeks off.

and that's pretty much me all caught up! :D yaayyy.
my dad etc have finally forgiven me about what she who should not be named did. even thou it was veryy hardly at all my fault. never forgiven and forgotten. v. angry! still haha

today i went back to work after two weeks off. was weird. cause i'm not used to working, but at least it was a short shift. i forgot to ask my dep for more hours. i'll do that saturday!
anyway, we've got these new chrimbo temps in atm. one girl is called alexandra, but she wants people to call her sasha. what ever floats her boat. and jammy. he's cool. made me laaarff today.
i bought some new socks cause i've officially run out as of yesturday. so thought i should.
drove home. i haven't driven my car in so long it felt so weird. went and practised some manooversss. hah  i dunno how you speel that bitch. i hate reversing round corners.  i HATE it. more than hate. i LOATH.
anyway.
yeah...
i read the time travellers wife recently. in three days. how wickedd. and slightly sad am i?! haha.
it was pretty damn good. even thou it did bring tears to my eyes at the end. BUT.
the best thing in it!
it said the word boff!! oh yes my friend. after me, jazz and matthew have been obsessed with using it in random sentances. it comes up (ooh err) in my book. haha
in the context of it's real meaning... dry hump. haha
good times my friend!! aha :)

i did think of something else to write, but it's totally gone...
ohwell.
i'm so excited for my works chrimbo do :)
we're off to que pasa in Oxford, and we get our own room, with a dj, cocktails and tapas. and apparently a photographer. me and my dep were thinking of like an honours list the other day. for people to vote for. like "the most funniest, and the quietest...etc" it's gonna be so fun! i'm going to wear my new sexy shoes!!
we're off to the pub quiz next weds too. hopefully it'll be good. i can't remember if we have to pay or not thou.
ohwellll :D

i'm off to do something more productive in life :) laterrrs. x

fml fml right up the a hole.

there's too much going wrong right now....

well.well.well

i haven't written a blog in a while. truth be told, it's cause i really can't be bothered to turn my laptop on just to write what's happened in my day.

so here's a quick summary...
tuesday, my birthday, wicked day, got sweet things, and it was just a pretty good day.
wednesday, passed my theory, had my hpv jab, went to tiff's to watch scary films and drink. fun fun. wickked (Y)
thursday, went home, i can't remember what else i did...
friday, my pirate party, so fun to dress up as a pirate :) and saw matt who now lives in waaaless.
saturday, jazz stayed over, made cookies, attempted to watch the orphange, turned it off, cause it was in spanish.
sunday, did nothing special of what i can remember.
monday, went into town, got a hole in my ear. saw lucia who i havent seen since year 8. day made. oh and i went to see up with the fam. fun times.

now tuesday, boring day, spent 3 hours reading straight, i'm addicted to this book jazz made me borrow. :)
it's pretty damn good.
attempted to do work. heard a rumour. FANTASTIC. why does this always happen?! hmmm?!

anyway, last night i felt so ridiculously lonely it was stupid. i wanted to text someone, but i didn't want a reply, with all that cliche stuff, like "oh dont worry you'll find your prince charming." that's bull. i just wanted to talk to someone, actually just at someone. cause then i wouldn't get a reply, with a load of crap trying to cheer me up. that's why i'm writing it here, cause you can just read it, say something in your head, and not comment, cause i dont want a comment. i just wanted to get it off my chest. i dont want a boyfriend, i just want someone there
or am i just kidding
myself?

i'm so fed up right now.

it's my birthday today.

and i got an i-pod touch, a camera and lee mack tickets! :D and a condom from jazz. i told you i was right.


i love my father etc :)

i gotta stick to my girls like glue and i'm a nobbly number two.

haha, i don't know what the real lyrics are, and quite frankly i don't care.


today was a good day.
i was in such a good mood, saw the girls caught up. and also jazz was saying that her present is so big it wouldn't fit into my bag.
which got me thinking...
is it a basketball hoop? a footspa? a car?
it could be a number of things, however, i've come to the conclusion that she's just saying this to distract me from the fact she's actually bought me something small. like a packet of false nails or a condom.
i bet she read this and laughs, thinking "haha you have no clue."
which get's me very excited.
so yes. it's my eighteenth tomorrow, which is very exciting.
i hope i get money. cause i need to pay for a driving lesson which i have no money for. bad times.
i've pretty much finished my printmaking project, i just need to mount my prints and check the breif.
which i've lost. i'll look for it later.
i've done loadsa work the past couple of days, and have managed to keep my room tidy in the process, this makes me happy, cause i can't work in mess, it distracts me.


i fell asleep today when i got home from college, i was just in bed casually reading, when suddenly i woke up with my book on the floor, this makes me think i was knocked out.
i was also woken by the sound of tape being pulled. i thought my dad was taping me into my room.
he wasn't. thank god :)
he was painting the skirting board, and my bathroom door.
which i just went into, forgot it had been painted, shut the door, then tried to open it, and the paint and become sticky and stuck to the door frame. haha. thankfully i got out. otherwise i'd have to crawl out the window...

i don't think i have anything else to say. except jazz's mum's giving us a lift to college tomorrrow. yayyy for lifts and parents who can drive. i love momma h. so i need to be at jazz's for 9. which means lay in. :)

oh and also! today for tea we were having jacket tatoe.
me and helena are the only ones who use flora in the house, so i was the first on it. it was nearly run out. so i thought, to annoy her, i'd leave the tiniest bit in there, so that frances wouldn't let her start a new packet til it was all finished. i left her a bit with a crumb on.
haha, immature? i don't care, i'm turning into an adult tomorrow :)

if you can't find your way. look for me.

so, this weekend's been an exciting one... haha :)
so it started friday, emma gave me a lift home, and we made a plan on how to "play it cool" that night at the pub. i'm so glad she can drive :) then i started getting ready for ryan's suprise birthday party. i didn't know what to wear. but i think i looked alright in what i finally decided to wear... :)
then i got my dad to give me a lift to chloe's. where she and david had some horrible tasting wine. no joke it tasted like cheese. ahah awful.
steph turned up, i hadnt seen her in ages! then we went. :)
loadsa people were there, it was great. loadsa people i hadn't seen in ages. like sam, i hadn't seen him since primary school... 6 years ago? and matt, who used to go to our college. ahah, there was some rumour going round that he punched someone i think... i can't really remember much of that night, me and kat shared a bottle of red wine. then me and emma shared one. i was fucked. haha. oh and i saw tilly! we did our dance, it was a great moment :)
then we had photos in the toilets where  there were showers... cause they were changing rooms cause its a football club. such a good night. and also i made friends with a girl i thought hated me.. haha crazy times! :)
and me and emma decided that we were going to go clubbing when i turn 18....one day!
oh and the funniest part of the night was when me and kat were dancing by ourselves on the dancefloor, and i slipped and hit my head on her knee.... impossible? i think so.
ryan's face when he came in was classic! it was such a good night :)
then saturday, i had work. at half 9 in the morning. i had 7 hours sleep that night, but i was fine, i wasn't hung over. just had the munchies all day ahha :)
i got a text from kat asking me to find her something purple to wear for that night, so that occupied me for like 15 minutes :)
i drove home from work, in the dark ahah scary stuff !
then i trekked halfway across didcot to sam's house for pizza round his for his birthday. we were going to watch texas chainsaw massacre, but we didn't. i'm glad cause i didn't fancy walking home in the dark after watching it haha :) so we watched x-factor instead, and michael mccintyres comedy roadshow.
oh, and henry and his girlfriend megan, tricked me into believing that jon had shaved all his hair off, and was bald. like reflection in your scalp bald. just cause i couldn't see him when he walked through the door. i was indeed shocked when he walked through fully haired up. i did abuse them after.
i left at about half ten.got home at eleven. went to bed and woke up today at eleven.
good tiiiimes :)
i did loads today, tidied my room, hoovered dusted the lot! then i did loadsa work too, so i'm nearly caught up. apart from illustration. i wrote loads in moleskin too, so hopefully it'll look better now. and decided on my finals for my fine art. :)
oh and, i dropped, black acryilic paint onto my bed cover. bad times. so im now sat in bed without a cover on it. haha :)
it came off thou. after many minutes of scrubbing.

i'm in such a good mood today, this weekend's been a gooden.
and it's my birthday on tuesday. one day away.
also my dad bought coraline on dvd. which we're going to watch in a bit.
tomorrow, i need to get my tickets from the station for cheltz.
and get come cookie mix, for tuesday. and get a shirt. cause i still don't have one for my pirate costume!
damn life.
i can't wait to see i can't wait to see the girls tomo, it feels like ages since i last saw them!
:)

oh and two more things.

yesturday i had to get jazz's stepdad to get the earring out of my ear with pliers.
fucking tigerlily giving me the wrong size.
and today i found out the fit boy on the bus has a girlfriend, as i heard him say on the phone this morning "i love you babe." to some bum down the phone.


fucking perfect.

conversation in two, and i wanna do so many things to you.

so basically, i'm gonna say today was a pretty crap day.
woke up slightly hung over. and i have some sort of bone sticking out of my neck near my ear.
yep you heard that right, a bone. i dunno if it really is a bone... but it feels like one.
strange.
anyway, back to my crap day, i'm so sleepy. i'm reeeeally behind on illustration :/ bad times, and that was our last lesson on that project today. fandabbytastic.
i could list my problems. but i really can't be furred.... as jazz has previously said.

i did get round to calling the health centre today thou, to book my hpv jab. it's next wednesday.
so i have, my theory, my jab, and then tiff's all in one day.
i'm thinking i might not go to college, cause it'd be so much effort going on so many buses. i might just, go home, and sit and then go, then go straight to tiff's after. plan.
and it's also the day after my birthday how rubbish.
but life goes on.
that's my motto? saying? i stand by that, and that there's always someone else who's worse off than you.
that kinda seems like you're arrogant. but whatever. :)


last night me, jazz and lauren all went over to hayley's house to have chinese and a catch up.
it was so good, i never see lauren or hayley anymore.
i also choked on my chinese i was eating, cause i forgot to swallow before laughing. something must have been extremely funny.
i also got my birthday pressie from hayley! it was the necklace i wanted from miss selfridge. how strange! :)
we ended the night after drinking too much wine, i don't really like white wine. but i drank it anyway, to look civilised and look girlie :)
both me jazz and lauren were feeling it, and trekked home moaning and laughing at life. it was great :)
one of the best nights i've had in a while i reckon. :) wickkedd..

i hate facebook.

...

i wish i didn't care.

i'm not in love,this is not my heart.

i have just successfully put my new (thicker) earring in my top bit of my ear i pierced myself.
wonderful.
there was some blood, but it didn't hurt. even though when i started putting it through, i did start piercing another bit and it nearly ended up coming out, the side of my ear. i should have got a longer barbell though, i can see it annoying me... :)

so today wasn't so bad, apart from me forgetting absolutely everything i needed for my fine art lesson, so i had to make glasses out of wire, but it was cool, it didn't look so bad, so yeaahhh :)
it was fun messing around with the overhead and the glasses too. fun fun.
then we went to oxford, well to tiff's house first. i love tiff's house, it's always fun, and we always gain more things when we go there. today i gained a necklace(which is very pretty thankyou trb.) and seventeen again, which i will watch later. :)
then we trundled off to oxford on the bus with cool seats. sadly tiff didn't find anything. but maybe she will in the future!
i got an barbell for my ear grissley bit (yum)
and then we went to visit matt (who wasn't there) and got acosted  by jamie morris at the same time.
we got free stuff it was alright in the end.
he's a weird child.

then we had to go home. and me & jazz got starred at by this random guy on the bus who was starring right in our eyes when we looked up.

then we got off the bus, and trundled, trundle trundle tundle... home :)
and here we are.
oh also!
today me and jazz started off the day by taking some sexyyy looking photos of ourselves..
here is just a little taster...

DAMN SEXY IF YOU ASK ME ;)

IT'S SUCH A WONDER WHY WE'RE SINGLE...

when i'm laughing at the bacon you're crying at the clinic.

so here i am... writing jazz's thankyou note for my present.
i lie. i'm listening to gym class heroes. making a playlist, titled boffage.
i think i'll play this playlist in my car. when i can drive. LUCKYMEEEEE.
i'm so excited for life right now  :D

today i got hit in the head by a frisbee.
yep, that's right, it fell out of the sky and onto my head.
hilarious really. i thought it was a bird falling on my head, but no, it was a frisbee, these silly people were throwing around the road.
who in their right minds throws frisbee's in the street?!
coorrr.

also, as i was lying on my bed downloading music...
i heard this noise, a noise familiarly recognised as fire.
yep, so i looked out my skylight, and there, in the sky, literally resting on my house was a hot air balloon, i reckon if i was to open it, i could have spoken to those in the basket. :)
i wish i had now..

i also saw some old man giving an old lady a massage in the street today.
how odd.
whatever get's her off i guess...


I HAVE NOW BOUGHT MY TRAIN TICKETS FOR CHELTENHAM ON THE 28TH :D
excitement my friends.
excitement !!
now i just have to narrow down my outfits to go out in.. :)
yayyy.

i don't think i have anything else to say.
so that's it. later :D

CAUSE YOU LOOK SO FINE AND I REALLY WANNA MAKE YOU MINE.

BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH DE DA.

BO BO BO BO BO BO BE DO DE DO.

GOOD MOOD. GOOD OL' MOOD.



i'm done.

you know that i could use somebody.

i'm so bored of life. i just did some work, but then i started day dreaming of all the things i want to buy but can't cause im quite poor. i accidently impulse bidded on a denim jacket on ebay again. haha. oh dear.
i have too many things i want to buy :'(

• a denim jacket.
• a ipod radio thing, that wakes you up with your ipod. they look fun.
• a camera.
• a pair of grey leggings.
• some oversized tops. like that one from miss selfridge me and jazz both like.
• a big black ring. and some more rings.
• some bracelets for a change. no necklaces.
• a red tartan scarf.
• a black pair of converse.
• a new purse.
• a new bag, cause mine's falling apart. well, my sisters' bag is falling apart.
• someone to do my work for me.
• a life.
• a hobby.
• nicer looking legs. i have weird looking legs.
• a good book to read, i want some new books!
• a reaaaaaally nice pair of earrings.
• superbad on dvd? i fancy watching it.

haha too much stuff :'( if i didn't buy anything this month.. i reckon i could afford most of this stuff.
but alas. i buy alot of crap.

i need a hobby. maybe i should start learning geeetar again? haha. i need a teacher please. for free. cause i don't save money.
fml, i just remembered i need to buy train tickets for my sisters.
and my contracts coming out on the 23rd.

poooor giiiirrrl.
well at least i have money i guess.

not everything's going to the beat.

my dad had bought some addias trainers. i noticed just a few minutes ago, he looked so proud. he's so strange, it reminded me of mike from hollyoaks. cause he wears trainers like that.. haha crazy times.
so last night, chloe & helen came round. it was nice, we caught up, shared gossip.. :)  turns out wantage people are fucking weird.  chloe also shared some interesing information, that my ex boyfriend is now going out with a 15 year old..

that. makes. me. sick.
lol.

makes me so happy i'm over that boy.
anyway!
we watched ghost town. it such a crap weird film... i aws so tired, i was nearly falling asleep watching it too!ahha :) then they went home. and i went upstairs watched family guy, hoping that creepy guy who says "hey there little kiddies..." came on. he didn't. he's my favourite haha :)

yesturday, i also got very pissed off at work. damn them changing managers. they keep putting me on 9.30 til 6.30 every saturday. I CAN'T GET HOME. dick'eds.
and they took my holiday away from me :( so i talked to my now new manager.  and i came out with shorter shifts and two more days holiday SCOREEEE.

nothing else has happened... i'm gonna go get some lunch now. and hopefully do some work!
:) have a nice day bloggers. x

this boat won't float.

i hate mood boards.

well no i don't really hate them, i just can't be asked with them.
i have no motivation today, i did, i had some coffee. facebook is my weakness.
i did however tidy my room :)
i think i have ocd.


i want to buy things.
i have no money, i remembered today that my contract will also take some more money out of my money. so i basically have £100 left of my wages left, i got paid like a week ago? i also got paid £430.
what the fuck :(

i really want a red tartan scarf and a denim jacket. and some more rings. ahha! not necklaces. maybe i'm out of that phase now...
12 days.
i need to sort my life out.

you're waking up, a part of me i've never known.

Today, i got woken up by the rain. at about six in the morning, and my alarm was supposed to go off 45 minutes later. i hate it when that happens. especially if you get woken up, that's the worst.

there's nothing on tv, again, what a suprise!
i'm stuck watching gok wan, is it just me, or do others get annoyed by this man. yes he's doing a good job by giving people confidence and stuff, cause barely anyone has it these days, unless you're dead skinny or a slag, either way you're gonna be skinny. unless you're a life model, they're pretty confident. anyway off the subject, i dunno how he does it, he's annoying.
and has tufty hair.
LOVE YOUR BELLY LADIES.

i've realised lately that i'm alot happier, i havent been down mush lately. i wish i had the motivation to do things thou. what wakes people up? any ideas? are there any foods that can make people motivated.
i'm going to google this. i googled. i found nothing, just a website to help with motivation if i was depressed.
maybe i need sleep?!
may-bee!

Today wasn't a bad day, I just realised alot that i've got loads of work to do. LOADS. i'm very much behind, but then again with the motivation.
haha, it's one vicious circle.

hut?

I can't write a blog and watch tv at the same time, it's so confusing, i don't think i can multitask, maybe i'm not a woman...
haha, i'm talking utter bull now, so i'm going to go, and practice more on my hazard perception ;)
yep. lucky me! :)
laterz

i'll stab you in the eye yo. with a f***ing brio.

i thought i'd be p.c there ;) today i've discovered my love for chase and status. they're pretty brilliant if you ask me. I've decided i'm going to download more of their tunes when i get on my laptop :)

so today, pretty boring day. printmaking. Which i haven't done any work for. but i'm slowly catching up with everything else. :) snaps for annis!

i also purchased some sexy looking boots today, £50 but OHWELL let's face it, i really did need them. i really can't wait for them to come in the post  :)
my pirate, skull scarf came in the post today! it made me even more excited for my birthday eee. so i expect everyone who's read this to come to mine okay?  well only if i've invited you. i'm so excited. i love birthdays :) i hope i get a camera. i desperately need one.

ALSO, when me and jazz were waiting for the bus today, some creepy lady was starring at me. then she bit her lip. it was funny creepy thou. haha, then i hid behind jazz and told her, and the lady moved closer, to right behind jazz! some people in this world are just plain weird.
i thought she was going to come and steal me. thank god jazz was there to hide me.
so that's my excitement for the day...
hopefully something interesting will happen soon. maybe tomorrow... i should probably tell tiff we need to bring in some certain stuff...
tiff, if you read this and i haven't told you. i did think about telling you at least.
and jazz, if you read this, maybe you should tell her.... cause i'll forget.
i bet i'll forget myself to bring in the stuff.
damn life.
i think that's all for now. you never know i might think of something to write later... :)
you lucky people ;)

ha.

by staging my protest & hiding out in my room, and avoiding my dad's glances & not talking at dinner.
he apologised.
even then i didn't look at him.

people are silly.

noone is as lucky as us.

Today I've been hiding out in my room, as me and my dad had a massive fight this morning.
if you see me and think my injuries are bad... you should see him ;) nahhhh it wasn't a physical thing, thank god, cause otherwise i prob wouldn't be writing this right now. ha. he's such a dick, starting caring now... i mean what's the point. i feel like a lodger in this house. actually no, a squatter, cause being a lodger i'd have to pay money to live here. fuck that.
he's an arse.

anyway! last night was really fun, India, Jazz and I did something different for a change. after a mission of getting to oxford (me sitting and waiting for a bus that didn't turn up for another 45 minutes.) we went to pizza hut and just ate. and ended up feeling ill after eating too much. it was YUM-EEE. we found out alot about each other that night, asking each other questions, random questions, like favourite films and what we were allergic to. so fun. :)


i wish i never fell for max lewis carter.


I'm so glad i didn't have work today, i had a massive lay in, maaan that was good, up until 9 when felix, who has the room underneath mine, started bouncing a ball against a wall. i could hear everything. every little stupid bounch. oh and also, he was singing. or attempting to sing. i felt like getting up and shouting at him. but no, my bed was far too comfy.

i've only eaten a bowl of shreddies today. i bloody love shreddies. i think i've lost my appetite after seeing that boy boffing up all over the bus last night. or hearing it, i shut my eyes. haha, it was so funny thou, some guys started talking to us. loadsa people were talking on the bus, like strangers that have never met. i like it when that happens. not sure why, it just shows how nice people are sometimes.

ALSO, today i've actually done work, i haven't actually started my mood boards, ive just got my research. and had some ideas for what to do on my project... music branding. which is my kinda project :) i need to do some proper research for that thou. im so behind. i hate being behind. cause then i can never be bothered to catch up with anything. oooh deeear. ha.

i don't think i have anything else to say.
apart from. i hate facebook. i wish i wasn't addicted to it. there's no point of it! it fuels my noseyness and i don't like being nosey. it's baaadd maaan. i might find if there's some sorta thing on my laptop that can stop me from going on it. ITS THAT BAD.
haha.

oh also, all those time's i've said my ear's swollen from where i pierced my ear. it's not, it's just the bar inside my ear haha. dick.

i'm gonna go do some work now, that NEEDS to be done.
laterrrrzz. xx

'cause i know that you love me more than anything in the world.

SO, i haven't written a blog in a while. let's catch up :)
last week was a pretty mediocre week. nothing spectacular happened.
unless you count drawing naked ladies called patty interesting. it isn't. standing up for five hours continously doing "tonal" drawings with ink and doing continuous line drawings with different coloured pens. which tbh i quite liked :)
then my sister's godmum came over, (she lives pretty far away) that wasn't so bad, 'cept helena was trying to make the whole thing about her.. as always. she's so odd looking. and has big hair. i want to punch her sometimes. :) anyway.
also last week, i turned up at jazz's house lovely and early in the morning for our bus, and it turned out we were wearing the same top. (Y) <-haven't used that in a while! so we spent pretty much the whole day going round college trying to hide the fact that we looked like dicks. but it was fun :)
yesturday (saturday 26th) was my favourite day of september so far i reckon. even though i had work all day, but closing was hilarious with harley, skye and hannah. we were talking about frida khalo. (i dunno how you spell her name) the famous artist with the monobrow, and hannah said that frida was in a car accident, and a pole went straight through her uterus so she couldnt have kids. or something like that. then i whether if you were impaled with a hollow pole, would it kinda scoop out some of your insides aswell... we didn't know. also, turns out i didnt know what a uterus was. cause i asked whereabouts it was and if it was next to your womb. turns out your womb is your uterus.. hey you learn something new everyday! :)
anyway, after driving home from work, i had to get ready super speedy for jazz's, cause she was having a cocktail night, which everyone was excited for! :) me india and tiff were the first there. :) tiff obvs cause she was getting the alcohol. then lauren and hayley turned up a bit later, which was great, cause we never get to see them much anymore. i took my slr so we got some wicked photos :)
we started the night by making pimms which was yummy :) reminds me of the summer. then we started on the vodka and juuuuice. everyone seemed to get drunk pretty quickly. esp after the drinking games of run the river and never have i ever... in which we learnt some new home truths about some certain people. which was GREAT :) it was such a laugh. then jazz's brother came down and joined us playing singstar, only cause he was drunk thou, he doesn't speak normally.... jazz is pretty damn good on singstar, and her brother... well he sings like jazz, but younger. haha.
india ended up escaping for a bit, bad move for fleetmeadow in didcot! but she was safe, she said that she met some lovely 14 year old girls who she talked to for a bit. but then she came home. and not long after that she was being sick all over jazz's bathroom floor. which i had to clean up cause tiff was just sat there, and india couldnt really do it, and jazz.. well she doesnt deal with sick. lol. but deeeeaar.reeey.meee. what a night. i also fell out of jazz's bed. which i don't remember, she told me in the morning. and apparently. it was bloody hilarious. i wish i remembered :'( haha.
last night was AMAZING. :) if you weren't there, you REALLY missed out. honestly.
haha.
and today, i came home to see my sister and her housemate struggling to put a rabbit hutch in sarah's car. funny to watch. she finally brought back my red cardi. but not my skirt or my top. because she wants to wear them again. fuming. angry. annoyed. dick. they're mine. she's worn them more than me. bastard. so when i go up in october, im nicking all her underwear. and she thinks im bloody joking. or maybe i'll just hide them somewhere in her house haha :) she's such a dick. pppft.
after she left i had a sleep on the sunlounger, but woke up to the cat lying on one foot, and licking my other foot's toes. not how i like to be woken up...
and here i am. back to now.
bit boring.
i'm trying to revise for my theory, but i'm not getting any better and i'm not getting worse. it's annoying. but maybe i'll just pass on a fluk :) that'd be great. i can't wait to drive...
anyway, i'm gonna go, i need to at least do something today.
hope that's a better post than last time ;)



annis xx

my first post.

so after an hour of trying to work out how this thing works. i'm done. haha.
at least it gave me something to do! other than research...
ahh it's the second week back at college and i'm already behind.
how does that even happen?! it's ridiculous.

anyway, my friend's tiff & jazz made me make one of these, i don't even know what to write here..
so i'm sorry if this is the most boring blog you've ever set your beady eyes on, but life goes on..
knowing me i'll forget about this blog and never write in here again, i've done that three times now.. but hopefully i'll remember, if i have things to write about that is..

i'm gonna go now, i'm probably boring everyone :) or whoever's cool enough to read this...
mannn i'm gay haha :)
night blogspot.