it's not you. it's me.

i'm feeling in such a crappy mood.

i've been like this constantly lately.

up & down. some up days and some down days, it always when i seem to be at home. or on my own...

i'm feel so lonely right now, i swear i'm getting depressed. it's bloody ridiculous.

i just want to curl up into a ball and sleep.. or cry.

it's stupid.

Dad & Frances have finally booked their wedding...

two weeks ago. i found out yesturday, not even from my dad..

from frances. my dad "forgot."

this doesn't make me feel great at all.

he told my sister last week, and even his friend who lives in shropshire.

I LIVE IN THIS HOUSE.

and the fact that frances told me... instead of my own dad.

i'm not even happy about the whole marriage thing.

thanks. & if you read this, don't get pissed with me, you didn't even tell me.

i'm just pretty much down about everything right now.

chloe messaged me on facebook saying "when you get this text me :)"

i just text her saying .. you messaged me...?

i'm gonna guess that she doesn't think she's done anything wrong.

pah.

and ... has deleted me off facebook? i dunno how i feel about that tbh.

i saw him today, it was weird. seeing as i havent seen him since august.

also! i just went onto ucas to sort out my qualifications etc.
it wouldn't let me log in. i tried it a million times.
pah.
i give up.

the only good thing that's come out of today is that my dad bought me an advent calender..
which is a build your own one, a lolly one. in which you have to take a lolly out everyday. :)

i need my hair cut & dyed.