fml

i can't be asked with feeling like this anymore.
so i'm not going to come online much anymore, cause then i start feeling like shit.
so this'll be my last blog for a while.

i decided last night, i'm not going to let stupid things get me down... even when i expect them.
& i'm not going to tell people my feelings as much anymore, cause it just gets me into trouble,  and i always feel stupid after saying something i really feel. so no. not anymore. i hate the feeling i get after i do that.
i feel SO embarrased its unreal.

so yeah, the ball's your court now. you have my number. i'm too embarrassed to talk to you.


today, wasn't bad. bit of a waste of time, didn't have any set lessons, so i just went in, printed some stuff off.. then went home. & me and jazz bought a pic n mix each.
i felt sick after my giant blue dolphin so i havent eaten any since... i'm not even a quarter of the way through yet. aha.
i had a driving lesson too.. my driving instructor made me pick up his daughter and i drove her home. haha.
not baaad.
also, someone's been wearing my hoody, it smells reeally girlie and not my perfumey smell :/
noones worn this hoody since chris... apart from me, and i've obviously washed it since him.
eurgh.

assessment tomo. i'm trying to get all my work done. but i keep getting distracted.


why is when something really good happens? something ALWAYS has to fuck it up?